Lately been struggling. Super fatigued. Long hours trying to keep all the balls in the air.
For Thanksgiving I got to sit in the local VA ER while they tried to figure out why I have been having consistent chest pains.
I say consistent because I want to make it clear I am not having heart attacks. Not unless you know of one that can last 6 weeks.
Anyway, I have been working 16 to 17 hour days for almost 4 months…toss in my school work on top of that…and I’m …tired. Last week is a good example. Washington DC on Monday, Cincinnati, OH by Wednesday, Charlotte NC by Thursday, Atlanta by Friday before getting home. The trip was originally supposed to be just DC and home by Wednesday. Turned in to a whirlwind of long hours and jet lag.
I have taken almost all of the end of the year off in vacation time. So I am trying to spend it away from work….and failing miserably.
I have managed to get it down to just one project that I am still working on, located over seas, so that helps. But woke up this morning looking for my work phone an feeling like someone was trying to crush my chest with a battering ram. Yeah not good.
Therefore this morning is homemade buttermilk waffles as kiddo and I embark upon our #12DaysofWaffles …though this year due to my travel schedule it’s been barely 7.
Trying to check out mentally for a few. Wish me luck.
What I hope is my last trip of the year comes up shortly. Is supposed to be a short and sweet one, but it has the possibility of becoming a multi destination all week journey.
It’s back to Washington D.C. again, however I have to be honest I am not looking forward to the trip. As I get older I find I dislike large cities more and more. Where once I could tolerate them, and enjoy passing in to the lives of other for a brief wistful moment, find colour and joy in little things like leaves of trees on a city street or sidewalk cafe conversation…now it all just annoys me.
I’d rather be home, in the quiet, without the hustle, without the crowds and people. Man may be a social creature but i wasn’t part of the survey. My idea of social is a very small amount of freinds over a nice adult beverage talking about what have you. Not a cacophony of sirens, people, arguments, begging, lack of personal space, and degeneration of human civility.
I have lived in several large cities in my time, and travels. Seattle, Atlanta, Buffalo, Dallas to name a few. Now I find myself wondering how the hell I ever did it.
I always take the last 2 to 3 weeks of the year off as vacation, and I am doing so again. Let the movers and shakers earn their keep, prove their worth, and value. I’ve spent over 110 days on the road this year, alone.
Me, I’d rather spend time with my family, and my dogs over a special holiday season.
For better or worse, we got Trump.
I have been very open on Twitter with the fact that I didn’t want Trump. I was also equally honest that my candidate, Gary Johnson didn’t have a huge chance, and that I am equally happy to see Hillary Clinton lose.
That said, I didn’t want or like Trump. Still don’t like him. No matter how I feel, or anyone else for that matter, all of that is moot. He was dully elected through our democratic process and is slated to be our 45th President.
When I was in the Army, we used to lament that we answer to the office, not to the person and I think that is very much how I view this election. It’s been the same way that I have viewed the last 8 years, frankly speaking.
Whether the populace was right or wrong we shall soon see. Buffoon or genius, gracious or insulting, power mad, or just plain mad will all be revealed in the coming days.
And like every other election since, we will decide if we have buyers remorse or are proud of our selection.
Time will tell. It always does.
For most folks it’s a TV show meme
For me its more of a statement of fact heralding back to the early years of our country. A reminder to prepare in the way we do every year here at my home place, off the beaten path.
We spent yesterday splitting firewood as you can see via the Twitter account. We still have a long way to go. Fire for us isn’t a cutesy thing we snuggle around for fun and romance (although it can be), it’s our primary heat source. So the work we do in preparing for winter is serious business. Failure to do it, failure to make time and get the cutting of food and other items we do such as prepping our garden for winter, checking house seals, and prepping out winter gear like chains, snow chains, de-icers etc can impact our long term ability to get to our jobs, stay warm or grow food.
It’s part of the price we pay trying to move to a off grid life style. Maybe it’s crazy. But it gives us reason to get up each day and we spend a lot more time together as a family.
That alone makes it worth it.
Doing a lot of hours lately and really grinding between work and school.
By the time I shut down for the day I can barely keep my eyes open.
So many balls in the air am concerned I am going to drop one before long. Lot of problems and challenges as well.
Taking a staycation this weekend to try to jump start myself. Need some down time and rest. Hoping a day or two off will do so.
I don’t post on 9/11.
I had my say on it a long time ago.
I’ll stay home with my scotch, my memories and my nightmares, thanks.
I’d appreciate it if ya’ll would do the same, and remember.
Don’t just remember today either. But remember next week.
Six weeks from now.
Six years from now.
Don’t make it a T-shirt sale. Don’t make it a shoe. Don’t belittle it with commerce. Remember it with honor, diginity and integrity.
As it should be.
Think I’m growing feathers.
Was in Washington DC at the beginning of this week. I fly international Sunday. The following week I am back in Atlanta. Then I will either be back in DC or back International. It’s anyone’s guess. Either way keep an eye peeled on the Twitter and Tumblr accounts linked here on the main page as you may get a chance to see some cool places, cocktails and things in the coming days.
I’m trying to find time to wrap up my prospectus but it seems like everytime I sit down to work on it I either fall asleep or the phone rings. My intent right now is to spend some time finishing it on the plane this Sunday since I will be in the air about 13 hours.
Surely I can can get it and my references in to APA in that amount of time.
Otherwise the grind has been in full affect. I had my knee surgery last week, and of course in typical me form had to set off for DC at the start of this week. So I am limping along without any grace whatsoever, completeing the look of an overweight, broken American brought down by his size (although I actually injured the knee on the job). Oh, well.
Got to sit down and shoot the bull with my chair again this week which was good. Is also why I intend to spend Sunday running this thing down.
I start the first of my last 9000 series classes on Monday. I only have 5 of them in theory, but in practice I will be taking the 9000 series until my dissertation is done no matter if its 5 or 25. Granted I want it done in 5, the school wants it done in 5, so that means my already very busy year is about to get a whole lot busier.
Feast or famine around these parts.
Cant believe its been almost a month since my last post. It seems like yesterday.
If you have been watching the Tumblr account embdeded in the main page you know I have been busy (and thirsty!). Went to Atlanta, followed by a trip to Washington DC. I will be making several more trips to both before the year is out currently by the way the land lays.
Had a change at work, and now I finally have some help. Won’t do me much good in the short term but in about 13 or 14 months I may not have to travel the way I have been. Thats very good news.
Meantime I have to try to train the new guys and teach thm what I know. That could prove interesting.
So I was recently told that I was not being pragmatic. It was on Twitter so take that for what its worth I guess.
I finally, after a lot of deliberation and soul searching, picked my candidate for 2016. I have no delusions that he has a hope in hell, but the fact is I am tired of choosing between a turd sandwich and a turd taco. Pragmatism is what has got us in to this mess of choosing between a criminal, possible negligent homicidal murderer and a loudmouthed blow hard buffoon.
That’s not a choice. It’s Blackmail. “Pick one of these or else.”
That is not how a system of government is to operate. It’s non tenable. It is also not solutioning, as more and more people are not being represented by those two parties due to differing social constructs and beliefs as we become more of a melting pot.
I firmly believe that part of our current tensions is due to this lack of or misrepresentation by elected officials. Further the lack of accountability to elected officials for their own actions has become a Ruling Class type perception. That is also a non-tenable long term aspect.
Its due these issues that I am voting for Gary Johnson and Bill Weld.
True they may not win. True they are a virtually unknown, thanks largely to the media who is giving them limited air time (albeit more than they usually get).
But I have to vote for the direction I feel the country actually needs to go to. I have to vote for what I feel is the right thing…not the Least Bad thing…for us to do. I have to vote my conscious.
I have been pragmatic since I became a registered voter, with the exception of my first vote where I voted for Stephen Forbes as I believed his system was right. Its time to reclaim a little piece of me, and maybe just maybe bring some sanity back. It’s time to vote for whats right not pragmatic.
It’s time for real change, not a milk carton slogan.
What’s worse is the public and media are accepting of this. They honestly believe that folks who work for someone who did the above will not interfere in an investigation? When’s the last time that happened at your job?
Totally depressing and disgusting. It’s not just inappropriate, its beyond poor decision making and blatant.
I’m going fishing for the 4th. Just tired of all the nonsense.
Keep your fireworks. I’m not sure there is much worth celebrating anymore. This government needs an enema.
Back in 2009, I was just wrapping up a job in Tennessee. I had been doing a UMTS expansion throughout the state for AT&T and was heading for home finally.
It had been a rough year. I had taken the job due to some troubles my bride and I were experieincing, both me in my previous career, and she with me. So I changed jobs. We’re still together so the change must of worked.
Anyrate, my daughter was becoming enamoured with Tennessee, part of what my bride has jokingly called “brainwashing” for several years…with a laugh.
So it was that on January 22, 2009 I took Critter to watch the Lady Vols, under Pat Summit take on the local Arkansas Razorbacks.
It’s been a while since we had one, but Delta is officially our Weasel for 2016.
So we just got back from our vacation. Barely.
I’ve recently been on a screed about Delta. As a long term, medallion member, I used to have a lot of loyalty towards the company. That loyalty has greatly waned, to a point of near despisal. If I did not already have several trips bought and paid for through them I would not be using the company anymore. But for at least two more months I am stuck with them. We booked this one via Delta Vacations, way back in March.
Nice long trip coming up. So should be updating Tumblr and here with some good pictures and adventures I hope.
Looking forward to the R&R as well as the grind has been brutal lately. Trying to get ahead on my school work has been punishing as well, but worth it in the end to have some breathing room for a few days.
Will update either while on the road, or when back. In either event should have some more blogging coming
Meanwhile I have updated the doctoral area with more resources for those who find it useful
Сollege graduates The alumnius.net site contains the best graduates of America
So I just finished my first doctoral residency for my current school. I had attended residencies for my previous school, but sadly they do not carry over. In any event, it was an interesting experience. My brain feels mostly like mush after grinding away at my prospectus for almost 5 days straight. It was odd discovering that i was ahead of many of those attending their first residency but I think honestly I was in a better position than they were to absorb the details being provided due to being in that position. I had several of my peers come up to me with blank expressions not understanding large parts of data because it simply wasn’t something that they had encountered in their educational journey yet. I can see how that may make them discouraged, and lead to some of the turnover rate in the program. Just my take, anyway.
In other news I am working on trying to publish a short story I wrote quite a while ago. I have to do some editing to it and I have to put it in the format required by Amazon, but it is my intent to try to clean it up and read like something better than a 5 year old. Don’t know that I will succeed in the last part however, but what the hell might as well try.
I have a lot of travel on the books still to go this year, but such is how it goes yes?
So the first thing we did was put plastic down in the hallways and anywhere we ran the hose. The idea is to prevent insulation from going throughout the house if the hoses separated at a joint. We also laid plastic down under the attic door, as with a hose you are bound to push some down in to your living space.