Posts Tagged ‘Education’
It’s a hard thing to admit failure.
It’s not something one enjoys, or that one likes to revel in it. It’s a lot different than Great Victory which is what we all strive for in the end, yes?
But occasionally, despite our abilities, skills, confidence, and sheer luck the Fates come around and stick a steel toe number 9 in your kiester to remind you that you aren’t infallible.
Me? I managed to get my project online, on time and under budget. I have some clean up work that will require some more travel soon but the larger goal I got completed.
I’ve also managed to hang on by the skin of my teeth to my Law Class. I’m passing, but only just. The multitude of work hours has made it damn near impossible for me to dedicate the time that I needed to dedicate to it.
I even managed to come off my Leave of Absence to help track and coordinate on Hurricane Sandy. An epic storm, and I got to work right through it going almost days without sleep between it, my job and my school.
In all of this I got a couple things done around the house and in my yard that needed doing.
No, where I failed was two fold. Firstly was here. I need to write here….I want to write here. The need to write is something I constantly have however when I sit down my mind goes blank, and the world comes crushing in and frankly the only thing I want to do is lie down somewhere with a glass of Irish whiskey and pass out. Like the whole world is leaning in and suffocating me.
The second, was my Engineering Economics class. Those who know me well know math has always been my Achilles heel, my kryptonite. I have managed on numerous occasions to study my way past the brick wall that my head freeze locks on when it comes to numbers. I’ve become pretty good with balance books and can iterate cash flows. But despite hours of study, practice exams, reading, even sleeping with my stupid book under my pillow, I crashed and burned hard on my midterm.
So hard that looking at the points I just don’t see that I can dig my way out of the hole and still pass. I have to score a 3.25 in my class or higher in order for it to count towards my graduate program. My score is light years from that currently.
Looking back I realize I literally have too much going. Some of it is unavoidable like my work projects. Other parts are my choice: I could resign from the storm center. I could have put off the yard work but the of the matter is it has to be done. I’m not a 23 year old college kid who lives in the dorm. I’m a pushing 40 year old male with a wife, kid, career and acres of home that have to be supported and taken care of.
In short school is killing me.
I’m not quitting, not yet. But the knowledge that I will have to retake this class is…in a word….deflating…..demoralizing and thats eye opening. I’ve had the Midas touch now for almost 5 years juggling career and education I saw this coming…but then I didn’t. I went in cocky and over confident.
And paid the price. My own fault.
I’d get really drunk, but I have to study for my mid term for my law class.
I started back to school in 2008.
Most of my high school classmates got their degree’s long ago. I took the Army route instead, and set out to see the world. When that ran out I went cross country climbing cell towers, eventually working my way up to doing work inside the shelters and finally management.
It was a rough, rocky and long road.
What a way to start graduate school heh.
I haven’t blogged anything regarding Missouri States sports program. That may change moving forward.
By a weird twist of fate, I just so happened to be finishing my paperwork at Carrington Hall for admissions while history for the school was being made on Saturday.
Missouri State got 18 points from Jermaine Mallett to lead four Bears in double figures in a 69-64 win over the Wichita State Shockers here Saturday afternoon in the regular-season finale for both clubs. With the victory, MSU (23-7, 15-3) earned its first-ever Missouri Valley Conference regular-season conference title.
Meanwhile I was giving copies of transcripts and other such material to admissions personnel.
(I first wrote this on August 21, of 2008 at Techography.. For some folks it may be very useful. For others, maybe not so much. Most of what I wrote here I still agree with. The numbers are no longer accurate, and I am in fact pursuing my Bachelors currently. Some of this however…not so much. But I’ll write about that later this week if I get time. -BS)
One thing I was concerned about when I started back to school was accreditation.And as recent News Reports show, its a serious issue.
The very first school I went to, after High School, was North Metro Technical Institute, now called North Metro Technical College. At that time they were unaccredited. They have since became so, is my understanding. But essentially what I learned there does me no good because the education I received was unaccredited at the time. Hence when I went back to school for the second time, I chose a college that I knew for a cold stone fact was accredited: University of Tennessee.
While I would have dearly loved to have graduated from there, the military didn’t let that happen.
First off, let me set the stage here by saying I went to a county high school system, also known as a public school.
While not a drooling idiot, I do think my education was lacking. Don’t get me wrong, it was not the failure of my teachers. It was as much my fault as anyone else. However 30 to 45 kids in a classroom, battered text books, mice in the hallways, and trailers do not always make the best system available.
By some strange luck I managed to blackmail my way in to a position with the school newspaper staff. I wrote a rather scathing article on what I considered the hidden costs of public education as change after change was implemented in the middle of the year. Agenda’s, change in backpack regulations, attire, other suddenly “required’ items that could, of course, be purchased from the school for a novel sum.
At one point it was even speculated we would pay for our graduating diploma’s (mine has long since vanished in the years of travel. If anyone in Georgia reads this, forward it to me, will ya?)
Somethings , it seems haven’t changed, and some boundaries have never been more different.
So as through a glass, and darkly
The age long strife I see
Where I fought in many guises,
Many names, but always me.
George S. Patton, Jr.
For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face
1 Corinthians 13
It was a good end to a Friday.
I bought groceries on the way home. Dropped them off at the house and called some old friend on my way to run a personal errand. My wife, bless her heart, inadvertently shattered my coffee press this past Monday and I sought to replace it.
While driving my mind wandered, questioning some decisions I had made this past week, as well as resolutions.
This time I hope to be bigger than I have been.
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While attending Basic Combat Training courtesy of the United States Army, my Drill Sgt regular demanded of us “Are you bigger than yourself?”
It became a mantra of sorts for us. To challenge us, to push us, to rise above. To be bigger than yourself.
Saturday I will make myself bigger than I was.
Saturday is a double step up the ladder for me, in my eyes anyway.
I like listening to the news while I fight with traffic every morning, and this morning was no exception.
So while listening to the traffic report, I hear this: Child Dies; Left All Day in Car. How could this happen, you ask? Well, I’ll tell you: The general population seems to be lacking in intelligence more, and more each passing day. Apparently this irresponsible mother drove to work at a school, and just forgot that her 21 month old child was strapped into the car seat. This mother should be left strapped into a seat in a hot van until she dies.<–(this is my opinion.)
So, while I thought that was a bazaar story, think about this: this is not the first time this has happened. Not only has this happened before, but it has happened recently: June, 6 2009
Investigators say Fish normally gives other children rides to school in addition to his own. But since school is out, Fish’s routine changed Thursday, causing him to forget his child was in the back of the van.
I beg to differ, that is not what made him forget, Stupidity, and irresponsibility, and a whole boat load of other descriptive terms that I don’t feel like typing, is what caused this complete moron to do this. This baby was 7 months old!!!!
Oh, yea, I forgot about the kicker: These were both Teachers!!! This is the kind of people that they let teach school? How can you be around kids all day and forget about your own!!!!!
Yeah I know there are a lot of advertisements for military based scholarships out there. And it turns out a lot of them are garbage. Or scams. Or scheme’s
I figured I would pass on the information regarding two valid scholarships that are available to veterans and military members. At least one is open to dependents!
Being a vet whose going to college myself I try to keep an eye out for these things.
Details after the Jump
Since continuing with school every 5 weeks I go in to a sort of Lockdown mode.
Mostly because I have too much crap to do and not enough time to do it.
It doesn’t help this weekend because I have managed to obtain some kind of freaking stomach virus.
My Gramps always said the best roads were never easy.
I’ll be online pretty much all day today but I won’t be doing much posting here this weekend. School comes first. I’ll try to get our weekly Irish post up between Sunday and Monday if I can break free. See if you can roust v00d3w from his slumber
Meanwhile, if you can’t be good: Be good at it.
For years now we have heard the rantings.
- “Violent video games cause violent kids“
- “It’s a fact violent video games cause violent kids“
- “Violent TV more dangerous than video games“
- “Internet worse for kids than TV“
- “Violent video games worse than pornography“
I’ve always liked this quote:
- Computer games don’t affect kids, I mean if Pac Man affected us as kids, we’d all be running around in darkened rooms, munching pills and listening to repetitive music.
- Marcus Brigstocke
A few things have come to light since PC World released coverage on the Most Violent Video games ever made.
But as usual it is interpreted in multiple ways.
A Recent study showed a level of desensitizing of boys after playing violent video games.
What it did not do was compare the video games to other control groups such as, the nightly news, movies, or television.
That being said, Kieth Stuart says the study is flawed from the outset
Cognitive neuroscience is a complex field – it is perhaps not something to be prodded and poked at during a piece of realty TV voyeurism masquerading as documentary material….…if just 20 minutes of exposure is enough to turn normal boys into desensitized monsters, our streets should be filled with violence. They’re not.
Indeed. The numbers may be in his court on that one. Science Daily not long ago released a study showing that children tend to play video games for over 9 hours a week.
However studies are still not conclusive in either direction. While this author will admit having a bit of bias in the argument, he will go so far as to say he looks forward to conclusive studies that do comparisons across the baord.
Meanwhile a group called ProCon, has established a forum regarding Video Games, to act as a clearning house of information in the argument.
One hopes that maybe from the large amount of information that is designed to create a specified result maybe we can come up with a level unbiased result.
In the meantime the best thing to do to keep your 8 year old on track from being a mass serial killer after playing Grand Theft Auto?
Start being a parent and take it away from him or her.